Let your goodness shine today even if you don’t feel up to it ~ Remember the glow of your spirit helps to encourage others… your unconditional love will help empower others to remain strong enough to carry on.. ~Karen Kostyla
You’re not the person I thought you were. I don’t know if it’s because you’ve changed or if I loved a person who never really existed at all… A person I made up in my own imagination; Someone who looked like you, had the same birthday and favorite color but everything else I just invented to fill in the blanks. Maybe I saw what I wanted to see…. a person I so desperately wanted and needed in my life at that time. Or maybe you pretended to be someone you weren’t to make me love you. I suppose I’ll never truly know. But the one thing I do know is this; I was being honest with you about who I was, so the loss is yours – not mine. You lost a real person who loved you very deeply. But if all I lost was a lie … then that’s not really a loss to me at all…. Ranata Suzuki.
People who don’t understand what you’re going through will tell you to ‘let go’ of a painful experience, as if it were as easy as opening your hand and all of your pain will simply fall away.
It is almost as if they think you are willingly holding onto it, as though your feelings are your own fault for stubbornly clinging onto memories you should be forcing yourself to forget.
But painful experiences and the emotions they create within us don’t work that way. There is no “delete” key. What has happened – has happened and nothing can ever change that.
And though the pain you are feeling is a heavy burden, it is not one you carry willingly and can simply ‘put down’ when you are too tired to go on. It is within you, it is part of you and it has changed you permanently.
But over time you WILL grow stronger and you WILL smile again despite all you have been through.
And that is when you will realize that it was never about learning to ‘let go’ …. It was about learning to carry it with you….Ranata Suzuki.
Whenever I close my eyes, I see you. Whenever I open my eyes, and you’re not there, I miss you. Every second of every day I want you with me; beside me, and sharing each moment with me. When you hold my hand, I want time to freeze so that you will never leave me. When you look into my eyes, I almost forget to blink as I drown in the depths of your soul. When you hug me, I forget to breathe. I want these moments to last for all eternity, and I pray for God to stop time, so I don’t have to spend one moment alone and miss you ever again. I want to see you, love you, live my life both with you and for you. When my time is up, I want to die in your arms so that I will never have to feel the agony of separation….Neena Gupta